Tuesday, March 3, 2020

Monthly miles





Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Hidden strengths

              I have always known myself to have good instincts. I can pick up when people don't like me, or when someone is attracted to me or even intimidated by me. I can sense it when someone wants more from an interaction, is disappointed or even angry underneath, regardless of their smile or their poker face. What I did not know though, until this week, is how come I am this way. I've always thought it was just something I was born with. Just this week it occurred to me, quite suddenly doing one of my walks, that I have always had to rely on myself and myself, alone, to know how to read any given situation. In fact, for most of my adolescent and adult life the huge decisions I made concerning my life, since age 9, I have done alone. No adult conversations, no guidance counselor, no coach, no teacher.....me, alone. My mother, who I love very, very much, and whom I do not fault for any of this, was of the generation that did not talk about much...period. Additionally, she worked long hours only to then face an almost hour and half commute each way daily. Growing up and I was left to my own devices, from a very young age and only when I had my own kids did I realize how alone this alone really was, for I could not imagine ever being that distant from my own kids. Again, not blaming anyone here, but truth is the truth and it was what it was. At my age, I refuse to lie to make things more palatable and being absolutely real is part of this middle-age mind shift. 

        But what a surprise to come to my mid 40's and see that what I regarded for so long as a misfortune ends up being one of THE most valuable assets, and what an amazingly useful asset it is. Without effort, I can feel people's vulnerabilities. I have friends that whom I can immediately tell when they are not okay. I walk into rooms full of people and feel the energy and use that to help me navigate the space. I have listened to this voice and this voice alone now for so long no that I trust it before any other. For example, when someone may be emotionally volatile; my whole body will feel tense in their presence. 

No doubt LOTS of people have these same gifts, in fact, I feel everyone has these gifts buried in them. In my case, my life circumstances have helped make these instincts razor sharp. That, combined with trusting one's instincts have come to reinforce these gifts. I never thought I'd be thankful for a tough upbringing. 

Monday, February 17, 2020

no apologies....2020 version


One thing running does to you is it makes you brutally honest. It could be a side affect from having the needs to address small body issues as the come up while running. In running, if one did not see  diagnose an issue clearly one cannot in essence fix the issue. In running it's of utmost importance to fix the issues as they come up and before they get huge. So runners become really good at tackling the issue at hand, as it comes up, this moment. We don't like to sit on issues. This is the lens I now use to address my world. Things come up and they are addressed, no matter how tough the "thing" is, leaving the issue to linger for another day is simply not an option. I bring this up because I have noticed myself become increasingly frustrated and incredibly impatience with how fear of confrontation from people who choose to run away instead of face their own mistakes help make a huge muck out of things. 

I find myself  therefore completely having zero patience for anyone who can't own up, do their part, participate, BUT, will expend tons of energy and go the ends of the earth to construct an excuse for their behavior, or worse, blame you for it. 2020 has brought out the teeth in me, and viscerally I find myself walking away from these people, emotionally, literally, and figuratively. More and more I remind myself of my mom. My mother could do 10 things at one time and do each one amazingly. She would, of course, always silently want and expect your help but if that help required her  to hold your hand while you did it,  forget it, she'd rather just do it herself, less stress, less drama...that is where I am right now. I have officially become my mother when it comes to how I think go disappointing people. 

Lucky for me I am surrounded by amazing people who dream big dreams like me, and who stand beside me shoulder to shoulder and pace along with the same ferocity. With people like these there is no limit to what one can accomplish. As I grow older people fall into two very distinct categories, the ones whose presence can help you soar and the one's whose weight can bring you down....there are no in-betweens, you are either someone who helps me sink or swim....if you make me sink I am cuttin' you loose. 

Friday, December 27, 2019

Mississippi Gulf Coast Marathon, Marathon #12, State #8

What was awesome about this race:
* The T-shirt was wonderfully soft, one of my very favorites.
* The course was sunny but not ever hot. There was a nice breeze at all times that helped it not become hot, ever.
*EVERYONE from the race directors to the volunteers were just so accommodating and lovely. Loved each and every one of them!!! I'd go back just to thank them all over again.
* Their choice of electrolytes and nutrition was easy on the stomach and now my new choice of electrolytes.
* The ease in which to get to start line (yellow busses as shuttles)
* The music at the start line was awesome!!


What could be improved:
* This was a race, I felt, primarily suited for the mudpack and front runners. Lots of BQ seekers in the crowd. As a back, back of the packer, I did not see many people that looked like me.
* I assumed the expo would be larger and would sell KT tape and GU so I did not pack those things. I ended up having to borrow them from a fellow runner.
* The course seriously needs to not have that loop at the end, so that the last runners do not run into trouble once the roads open back up.



The hotel I stayed at, Beau Rivage, was dressed for the holidays. 



Blast from the past!

Even a waving Santa!!


This is the location for the expo. It was small but the items in it were great. 
You know you are in the south when you see trees like these....anyone who knows me knows I lOOOOVVVEEE trees. 

I was just drooling over the greens.....in December!!

Heather and I tried to go to Whole Foods, and this is where Waze took us...LOL.... 

Some sightseeing....




A ceramics studio.....











We finally make it to the hotel and are ready to relax for the evening. 

Below us, casinos are just beginning. 

Alarm goes off on Sunday and this is me trying to look "ready"

Eerie sight. Runners waiting at dawn for portages-potties. 
And the sun finally rises....and its time to start...

The sun peeks through the clouds and into the horizon. 

I only see a few hundred runners for the full.....gulp. 
Police escort for the first 13 miles..... 
Heather helping me make the last few yards....

so freaking glad it's over

#12 done.... now I seriously need to work on getting faster because I do not plan on being last-ish ever again. 


Best part of racing is after racing.... a well-deserved bath!!!

Ready to catch my plane and taking silly pics. 

I am going to miss all this decor....


Goodbye Mississippi!! View from my hotel. 


Thursday, December 26, 2019

Notes one training for a 48 hour race

First,  I should explain what my goal is. My goal is to do 101 miles within this time frame, no more, no less. Once I complete this milage I plan to stop. Below are my notes from my online research into how to train for this.....

*  Plan for one or more naps of 30 minutes to several hours. 
*  Have a person wake you
*  Run until you can't keep eyes open anymore. 
Scheduled walking breaks 
* maybe 15 minute run, 5 walk? (one option) Or, "power-walk a mile every half hour."
* Start conservatively and end strong 
* Eat small portions to avoid stomach problems 
* Add Electrolyte solution that agrees with you
* Second night is the toughest- hallucinations 
* It will show you your weakest part of your body 
* Take a few days off work 
* Immunity will be greatly reduced for several weeks after (note to self-maybe juice a lot before)
* "I am on record as noting that a lot of finishing or persevering in ultras, particularly at 100mi, is between the ears, not below the waist."
* "all I really need is about 15 minutes sleep to clear the brain" and "naps of 10-15 minutes are all you need.
for me, one of those was usually sufficient for 48 hours." * "....the idea of sleeping and waking up really sore and stiff is correct. the idea that you wont get moving again is incorrect."
* ".....you dont have to go fast, but you need to go as much as possible."
* sleep deprivation is the hardest part 
Fight the impulse to rack up miles early. 
* Incorporate walking breaks from the start to keep your legs as fresh as possible. 
* Stick with your race strategy. Eat and drink adequate calories.
* "the feeling of “we’re all in this mess together” is intense."
* "I escaped completely chaffe-free thanks to frequently reapplying Body Glide and changing into clean clothes every now and then. My feet were in pretty good shape. I changed my lightweight socks and covered my feet with Skin Glide every 8-ish hours"



Sources:thank you!!
*http://marathonandbeyond.com/choices/HAGEN2.htm
* http://stevetursi.blogspot.com/2010/04/48-hour-strategy.html
* https://www.insider.com/global-running-day-ultra-runner-how-to-run
*  https://www.runnersworld.com/advanced/a20813009/ask-the-coaches-strategy-for-a-200-mile-race/
* https://gregsalvesen.com/2015/04/06/getting-loopy-at-the-pickled-feet-48-hour/